Smile if the sun meets you in the morning and ride its warm energy through the rest of your day. Cruisin
263 days
“Women are often comfortable lying to men in order to manipulate them to give us things we feel we want or deserve. We may lie to bolster a male’s self esteem. These lies may take the form of pretending to feel emotions we do not feel to pretending levels of emotional vulnerability and neediness that are false.”
-bell hooks, All About Love
I see you Cosmo. bell hooks does too.
And how do I play into this too?
264 days
the brilliant thing about being a woman is that I’m punished for both trusting and distrusting men!
I should magically know which man is going to harm me by having a brief conversation with him. if I trust Bad Men, then, well. I should’ve known.
if I don’t trust Nice Men though, I’m an utter bitch who deserves violence. don’t I know most men are good people?
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(Reblogged from cielito-lindo)
I chose to be a writer in girlhood because books rescued me. They were the places where I could bring the broken bits and pieces of myself and put them together again, the places where I could dream about alternative realities, possible futures. They let me know firsthand that if the mind was to be the site of resistance, only the imagination could make it so. To imagine, then, was a way to begin the process of transforming reality. All that we cannot imagine will never come into being.
bell hooks, “Narratives of Struggle” (via sevenredumbrellas)
I don’t have the tightest analysis on sexism, but I think it’s some internalized bullshit that when a guy is texting me and trying to talk to me and I’m not feeling it, I feel all this stress and guilt-
Oh maybe he’s just being nice, maybe I’m writing him off too quickly, maybe I’m overreacting to his weird fucking excessive use of winky smileys in his texts, maybe his intentions really are to just be friends, maybe-
FUCK IT. I am not comfortable or interested, and that should matter more to me than some stranger I don’t even fucking know who is giving me all the wrong vibes.
I just wanted a homieeee.
Do you ever finish a book and feel kinda disappointed it’s over now? That’s how I feel about Speaker of the Dead.
265 days
Goals: In fitness
Got a gym membership today.
for the first time ever my goals didn’t include anything about fat or appearance and were all about how to boost my energy for work and strengthen my back to keep my spine from curving more.
I’m trying to cherish my body not only for what it can do but also for just being my body. Gotta show it some love.
267 days
“and so for me personally, the only thing that has worked is through reconnecting in faith and relying on higher power, in my case God/Jesus to change me and through that my priorities and desires and all of it has changed. But I know for me, I couldn’t just will myself to do it. i tried so many times like i guess what changed was that it wasn’t just a prayer to a higher power, that i knew my whole life, but a relationship with one, if that makes sense. crazy, radical love”
…said my friend about how spirituality has grown to be in her life.
Something I never conceived of in those terms before.
A door I walked by without seeing until now?
268 days.
I lost count on my countdown.
So I’ll start again.
269 days until Chicago!
